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Wooed Zentangle for T & E in celebration of Tabitha accepting the marriage proposal from Eric…WOOOoooOOOO!
April 5th 2014


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Zentangled Fibromyalgia awareness butterfly…
pen and ink uploaded to a photo editor and colored purple ( my ink is basic black)
way back when I was wee I discovered how fun pen and ink was…then a few years back discovered Zentangle, meditative art…woo…have loved it ever since. Like doodling on caffeine…hence some of the wiggly lines. Hoping to one day combine the pen and ink with quilting…both my passions at once! Although at the moment I’m saving up for a guitar body to get Zen all over! April 7th 2014

autism awareness, sewing with Shamus

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10 gifts closer to being done holiday gift making 2014! oh if you notice one of these may be yours please Men in Black memory eraser light thingy your brain pan so you’ll still be surprised in December! I made these using my tutorial: http://nanayane.wordpress.com/2014/01/02/tutorial-cloth-box-with-little-outer-pockets/

Completed during the Walking Dead March 30th 2014

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2 wee summer dresses for Olivia, can’t wait for her to visit on Wednesday so I can take her picture in them! March 30th 2014

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Shamus in his regular resting spot when I’m sewing…pretty sure he can see me!

4 pair of warm tootsies

I splurged and purchased a new pinking shears, JoAnn Fabrics/Friskers…OK really didn’t splurge too much, I had a 40% off one item coupon…well, then there was the 10 yards of flannel, the ½ yard of super cute (I won’t mention the price, ouch) ready to sew pretty pony sundress fabric, (just needs one seam and Olivia will look fabulous) the nice snap sets for bibs…hmmm…yep that was it for my insane fabric addition moment.

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With the fabulous pinking shears I cut out an even dozen pair of flannel booties without even getting a blister! Sunday after finishing a special order (D I’ll send it UPS next Wednesday, its lovely!) I threw 4 pair of booties on the machine and WOO HOO they came out perfect! I should get the rest done without a problem (D I’ll send the booties along with the special order well and a few other sweet baby things!)

Here is the link to the site where I found the bootie pattern…you’ll note I did not follow the instructions, that’s how I roll!


March 23rd 2014

sweet flannel booties

AND my first pair of booties!

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Here’s the pattern if anyone else in interested: http://www.purlbee.com/storage/felt_baby_shoes_template.pdf

I made mine out of 2 layers of flannel rather than felt, less itchy.  These were done by hand, took me a few hours spread over a few days.  After finishing this pair I think I could probably do these on the machine.  That contemplation is planned for this weekend.  I also added ribbon ties rather than elastic on the inside of the bootie so mom can better control how tight the booty is…and no irritation on tender skin either…well let’s just say I infrequently actually follow the instructions J what’s totally nice is this pattern is so small I can use the scraps left over from the many other sweet baby projects, no need to buy anything new! Well and the scraps are already piled in tidy coordinating sets of 2…way too easy! I do need to invest in new pinking shears as the one’s I have makes me feel like I’m cutting through wood paneling rather than nice soft flannel! This pair will be going to God’s Tiny Angels to warm the feet of a sweet baby in need!

finally sewing take 2

cha…I posted to the wrong word press deal…nice…
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I’m all ready for the next 2 baby showers as long as we know one’s a girl and the other’s a boy…Sooooo if you invite me…please check on that one little detail so I bring the correct shade of gift. Each set has matching bibs (3), burp cloths (3) receiving blanket (1) and owl/cat rattle/tag toy. Wicked cuteness! These were completed March 16th 2014

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Made 2 piles of Teeny Tears diapers size large – up to 32 week gestation sized. Will be adding matching caps to each set. No idea where these will be going yet so they will be residing with the rest waiting for a hospital to adopt. March 17th 2014

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Made a pile of girlie angel pockets for angels too tiny and fragile to dress…then I moved onto the boy pile and promptly sewed it together wrong…well Olivia has a lovey for this rather unattractive doll to live in now…I put the boy pile together correctly before I’m even going to get near the sewing machine! March 17th 2014

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Owl/Cat Rattle/Tag toys…and 3 pointing the way squeaker/tag toys. The owl/cats will be joining matching bibs/burp cloths/receiving blankets…the pointer toys will be going where ever they can. March 16th 2014

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Slightly crooked, on purpose, bunny wall-hanging for work for the next holiday… pretty adequate if I do say so myself… March 18th 2014

Flannel, Shamus, sun pups

Found a couple of printed panels at JoAnn Fabrics when I ran there for ribbon…and yes the fabric isn’t really stored by the ribbon…Jaz located them for me…nonetheless…each panel has 2 bibs and 2 burp cloths on them so I bought a boy (monkey) and a girl (paisley Elephants) version…total cuteness! These I think I’ll put away for the next baby born but I also took a few measurements and out of a yard of flannel I can get a newborn receiving blanket and a matching bib and burp cloth to make cute little sets to donate… in this pile there are the bib and burp cloths as well as the next batch of large buntings…just need ironing and top stitching! January 27th 2014

Shamus being rudely awakened during his post bath nap…he is so soft after his bath I could help but pet him! January 26th 2014

Sun dogs book ending the sunset.  You can’t really tell but there’s a 50 mile per hour wind rushing across the field…not pictured the waist high drifts I walked through to get this lovely unobstructed view.  Looked much rainbowier in real life… Delano MN January 26th 2014

Tutorial: Cloth Box with Little Outer Pockets

Cloth box with little outer pockets

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2 coordinating or not so coordinating fabrics (fabric used here are RJR Witchie Poo Spiders Green & Grey)

Iron on fleece (I used Pellon®’s 987F Fusible Fleece)

Rotary cutter, mat and ruler

Fabric marking pencil/pen

Iron and ironing board

Sewing machine with your choice of thread



1)     After ironing your fabrics, place them right sides together on your cutting mat.

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2)     Using your cutter and ruler cut a 10 inch square out of both.  If you want a larger or smaller box change this size accordingly. Make sure your square is square.

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3)     Iron one scare onto fusible fleece.  Trim fleece to the size of the square.

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4)     Sew both squares, right sides together, with fleece on the outside leaving an opening to turn your square right side out. Use a scant ¼ inch.

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5)     Trim as close to the sewn line as possible without cutting the stitches.

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6)     Trim a little of the fusible fleece from the opening to make it easier to close using care so as not to trim the fabric.

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7)     Turn your square right side out using a pokey deal of your choosing to make the corners nice and pointy.

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8)     Iron your lovely sewn square.  Both sides just to be sure.

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9)     Pin the opening shut

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10) Sew all the way around as close to the edge as possible, closing the opening as you go.

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11) Machine quilt your square liberally.

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12) Fold your square in half the inside fabric on the inside.

13) Using your handy dandy ruler and a fabric marking device, mark a 3 inch triangle on both folded corners.

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14) Sew along your marking remembering to backstitch at the beginning and the end.

15) Now fold your box in the other direction…looks kind of messy but really it will work!  Once again mark 3 inch triangles on the two non-sewn folded corners.

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16) Sew these 2 triangles as well.

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17) Weird looking tulip type deal…neato!

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18) Pin down the 4 points

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19) Pin open the 4 small outer pockets.

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20) You could stop here if you don’t mind constantly pinning yourself…

21) Next batch of ingredients: note I changed the buttons. Scissor,  thread, needle, thimble as needed.

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22) On each triangle you’ve pinned down sew a button.  You can use ribbon roses or anything else that peaks your interest

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23) Tack each of the 2 corners of each little outer pocket.  You can leave these without sewing them but I though it just tidied up the whole thing.

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24) Welcome to your completed fabric box with little outer pockets.

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This one will be gracing my desk during Halloween!

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The buttons look a little messy with the thread over the spiders but these had no shank backs and I don’t get along with glue.

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These little boxes can be squished quite nicely so could be mailed out in a fat envelope.  This whole pile of happiness too about an hour or so.

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Rather productive StayCation

Very productive 5 day staycation!


Celestial Rainbow a large lap quilt I started in 2009 and just finish will be going to my Auntie Ev when my mom visits her…lots of hand quilting in the 2 large circles one’s a sun and the other is a moon.  I machined the borders…love all this bright happy fabric, frogs, bug and buttons…it’s backed with black that has embroidered dots in a rainbow of colors. Finally finished December 29th 2013.


Christmas gifts of fabrics from Tabitha and my mom! Mom got me a massive pile of cottons, socks for beasties and fun buttons. Tabitha got me scrumptious flannels and a fabulous Gingher scissor! I can cut through 5 layers of fabric at a time… December 25th 2013 wow I really need to get sewing!


Tagasaursi (multiple tagasauruses) the cute Camo one and giant lady bug one already have homes, the other 2 will be going to God’s Tiny Angels.  The pattern for these via: http://www.bubblesandbobbins.com/2012/03/tutorial-how-to-make-dinos…

December 29th 2013

Massive stacks of flannel…Think I’d better get to work! December 28th 2013


My modern troll audience hanging out on my lamp (thanks Tab) can always use more color in my sewing space! December 26th 2013

Fabric Box, 1st try, found this idea on http://seaside-stitches.blogspot.com/2013/03/fabric-box-tutorial.html but rather than putting the little triangles on the inside I put them on the out so they can be used as tiny pockets…perhaps I’ll make up a tutorial for this version.  With the copious amounts of fabric I will be making quite a few of these for Christmas 2014…December 29th 2013

Blue & Green Fabric box made for my Shoebox Swap partner (2014) December 29th 2013

Think I’ll make a tutorial for this version with the little pockets on the outside…

Yule Tide Silliness

I’m dreaming of a glowing flamingo Christmas…well OK doesn’t really roll off the tongue like the song…but he is fabulously tacky!

The ever elusive Keek the upstairs cat Shamus hears but can never really see…

The stockings were hung and filled to capacity by the stairway with care…course I’m sure everyone has been peeking into theirs as they walk by…

This year’s wicked cool Christmas tree…can’t quite see the wee purple lights for all the dangly deals…note the 2 gifts that still say Amazon on them…Jim couldn’t wrap them while I was in the room…I may just open those one’s 1st!

Sunset 7 days and counting to the great Christmas Chaos…

Oliver sewed a bed out of felt…he’s now working on making a Jack Skellington to sleep in it.


Try as we might, getting Shamus to be a happy Christmas boy just didn’t work out…

Sitting up waiting to leap from the chair

Noticing that the antlers are too heavy for his neck

Looking at Oliver pleading for an escape

Forlorn…poor baby giving up

Oliver can dress like a puppy for Christmas just fine!

a little sewing can go a long way!

Burp cloths in process.  Half will go to God’s Tiny Angels the other half will go to Wright County here in Minnesota for the teen mommies.  Each will have 2 matching burp cloths in a baggie. December 8th 2013

Cheater quilts patiently waiting for some top stitching.  I’m thinking the lovely flowered one will go to a sweet little toddler I know for Christmas.  The other 2 will be joining about 22 other blankets/quilts for the blanket drive for God’s Tiny Angels. December 8th 2013

Flannel and cotton waiting some serious ironing and slicing up…Receiving blankets, teeny diapers, angel wraps, perhaps newborn snap gowns and buntings will be just flying out of this pile bound for God’s Tine Angels, Teeny Tears, Angel Outfitters and perhaps a few will go to the teen mommies here in Minnesota…just need the time and energy! December 8th 2013

Olivia with a box on her eye…no idea she’s now into having something on her face when you take her picture December 6th 2013

Newborn sized hospital gown with snaps. December 8th 2013

Newborn sized snap on hospital gown on a newborn sized doll…front and back…I am now out of snaps ugh…have some on order though so I can keep snapping up wee gowns! December 8th 2013

2 newborn sized snap on gowns.  These will be going to God’s Tiny Angels 2014 December 8th 2013

Snoozy Shamus (naughty boy) sleeping on Jazmin’s chair in her absence December 8th 2013

Thank you card I received from a hospital here in Minnesota that I sent a batch of Teeny Tears diapers to.  I dare say it’s nice to hear occasionally that what I’ve done helps people!

Shamus in glorious color


Shamus with his nifty hair cut in front of the fabulous Judi made rainbow afghan…lovely! November 23rd 2013

Shamus looking pointedly at me while I’m cutting flannel…guess he needs something! November 24th 2013

Tired Shamus after his day at the groomer…hugging his giant honker dog… November 23rd 2013

Shamus gazing at the boob tube…or perhaps just snoozing November 23rd 2013

Ah Shamus over the shoulder stop-taking-my-picture look November 24th 2013

holiday sewing


Olivia’s Christmas Hello Kitty Quilt all done washed and ready for wrapping…yeah my machine quilting abilities are kind of lacking…I figure she will drag it about till  it’s shreds… November 17th 2013

Shamus looking mighty furry as he watches me package angel wraps. November 17th 2013

fabric therapy


Judi’s lovely cat box barter quilt complete with fun kitty footprint border and already has the batting ironed on.  No idea what size it is yet…comfortable lap sized for sure! November 3rd 2013

Olivia’s way too cute Hello Kitty quilt pinned and ready for some furious machine quilting. November 3rd 2013

Oliver & Olivia (8 & almost 2) Halloween 2013

silly Shamus

Shamus having a few silly moments with his blanket.  Don’t tell Olivia though, she thinks it’s still hers in spite of the spit, tooth marks and Shamus funky smell to it now.

Habeeb Shamus

Sprawled on the floor Shamus

Tongue Shamus

Yoga Shamus

October 27th 2013

productive weekend

Sweet antique hanky bonnets…out of a stack of 12 hankies from an antique store I managed to get 8 total hanky bonnets, three I’ll try to sell on Etsy, try, if they don’t sell before I ship the next box to God’s Tiny Angels the three will be joining these 5 really cute bonnets. These will easily fit a newborn for the ride home from the hospital or for Christening/naming ceremony. Each will have a poem with it:

Just a Little Hankie

I am just a little hankie,

As square as can be;
But with a stitch or two,

They’ve made a bonnet out of me.
I’ll be worn home from the hospital, and on special days,
And then I’ll be carefully pressed and neatly packed away.
Then on the wedding, I have been told,
Every well dressed Bride must have something old.
So what would be more fitting than to find Little Old Me,
A few stitches snipped and a wedding handkerchief I will be!
And if per chance, it is a boy, someday he still will wed.
So to his spouse he can present the handkerchief once worn upon his head!

These were made October 19th 2013

Link to Hanky bonnet instructions: http://bumblebeelinens.com/hankiebonnet.php

The hanky bonnets I’ll try to sell: one boyish one out of linen, one girlie one with pink edging and one girl one that’s a really pretty translucent hanky…I really like this hanky! These are for sale on my Etsy page.  All $ will go towards shipping out donations. They will each have the hanky poem with them as well. These will easily fit a newborn for the ride home from the hospital or for Christening/naming ceremony. Just in case anyone wants one https://www.etsy.com/shop/YaneZweeLovies?ref=si_shop

These were made October 19th 2013

Three more hanky bonnets out of hankies from my mom.  I really like the ones with a little color…white is so very…white…I think the one with green embroidery would be great for a little Irish baby or once born on St. Patty’s day! These will all be going to God’s Tiny Angels in the next shipment. These will easily fit a newborn for the ride home from the hospital or for Christening/naming ceremony. Each will have the hanky poem with it. These were made on October 20th 2013

Shamus turned 4 on the 20th…here’s the birthday boy stealing the cake.  I don’t think I’ll ever get a good picture of him sitting there patiently waiting to eat the cake.  Oh well…he did enjoy his birthday squeaky fish… October 20th 2013

2 cheater quilts edged and ready to be shipped out after Christmas to God’s Tiny Angels.  I dare say I really like the cheaters…they go so fast and look fabulous! I’ll have to keep my eye out for more! October 20th 2013

The latest pile of lovies waiting for some top stitching.  12 slightly larger than receiving blankets for newborns and one newborn boy quilt with Minky patches and a flannel back. We’ll see if I can get these done during the week! These will all be shipped out to God’s Tiny Angels after Christmas.  October 20th 2013

gearing up for a sewrific weekend

Angels sets flipped and patiently waiting to be top stitched…I have a few more set of teeny diapers to completed before all these angel sets will be ready to get their cap and be packaged… October 17th 2013

Shamus wondering why I’m sitting on the floor talking like a duck to him… October 16th 2013

Antique hankies drying after a good long soak to brighten them up…the 2 with clothes pins won’t be becoming bonnets as one has holes and the other has a pesky nose stain I can’t remove…the rest however will be lightly starched, ironed and made into bonnets this weekend. October 17th 2013

Just a Little Hankie

I am just a little hankie,

As square as can be;
But with a stitch or two,

They’ve made a bonnet out of me.
I’ll be worn home from the hospital, and on special days,
And then I’ll be carefully pressed and neatly packed away.
Then on the wedding, I have been told,
Every well dressed Bride must have something old.
So what would be more fitting than to find Little Old Me,
A few stitches snipped and a wedding handkerchief I will be!
And if per chance, it is a boy, someday he still will wed.
So to his spouse he can present the handkerchief once worn upon his head!

Newest flannel finds at JoAnn Fabrics! 10 fat quarters will make 5 angel sets with 2 teeny diapers and 1 wee lovie each. And 10 yards of flannel that will make 5 newborn receiving blankets and 5 angel sets. I just love the lime green buffalo plaid! Thanks to eagle eye Jazmin right before I paid for it all she saw that there were intermittent tiny blue dots on the pink stars flannel…we went back to get a different piece of the same fabric and found that about 4 yards of the pink stars had these tiny blue dots…thankfully when we started looking at a new bolt of the same print there were no blue dots.  One just cannot have blue dots just showing up hibbly jibbly on your pink on white stars…

Looks like I have a bit of ironing, cutting and sewing in my future! October 17th 2013

sewing in photos

The cutting/sewing table full of the next batch of ironing and cutting…sigh…so much of this is from the quilt shop…I miss the quilt shop with it’s quality fabrics in fabulous prints, surrounded with great ideas and even greater people…but I digress…got ironing to get to!


I ironed…I cut…I sewed so much I used up a spool of thread…I know it’s probably not a massive deal for most but I’ve used 1094 yard of thread since we moved…I started with a fresh spool when I set up the sewing niche…yeah I’m easily impressed…woohoo empty spool…moving on


Sunset Over the Singer…I do so love my sewing niche! I haven’t been able to see outside or have natural lighting for so long I didn’t know what I was missing! Now I can enjoy the seasons while I sew, the garden and maybe even a little wildlife outside the window! October 13th 2013

Al who dwell in my heart on the WALL


The All Who Dwell in my Heart quilt is totally done and on the wall…doesn’t hang perfectly flat but hey after 3 years of hand paper piecing what does one expect!  20 heart blocks hand stitched, hand embroidered than ribbons added by machine…whew…it’s machine quilted in the ditch between the blocks…haven’t quite decided if I want to tackle hand quilting each heart yet…the back is a fabulous lavender paisley with orange and retina burning color combinations…edged in white with tiny buttons…kinda garish once it was complete but I’m not one to just tear something apart because it’s garish…that and I hate ripping out seams! Finally on the wall October 6th 2013


Witchie z sew far

Paper pieced Hogwarts Sue witchie block. She’s all hand pieced and is 9 inches square.  Still need to embroider a wee H on the light blue area for Hogwarts.  Cuteness! This block patter was had for free at: http://sewhooked.com/2013/09/11/a-free-sue-for-you/ Completed September 29th 2013

The paper pieced witches and wizard so far…thinking of snowballing the corners of each block with differing sized of squares in a freaky rainbow as I have a box of assorted squares left over from other projects…now that the design wall is back where it belongs the witches and friends will dangle there till I get them all completed.  I think this quilt will grow large enough for me to sleep under! September 29th 2013

a trendy witchie poo

Paper pieced Trendy Witch…Love the paisley top and the fabulous peacock mish mash hat! Only thing is when I was removing the paper I somehow put my finger right through the batik pant leg, hence the red patch.  I just hope when I send this out to eventually be quilted the quilter doesn’t get hung up on the patch…

This pattern is part of the group Wand Wielders http://www.craftsy.com/user/470750/pattern-store#_=_

This block is 9 inches square. Finally completed September 22nd 2013

paper pieced celestial wizard

Celestial paper pieced Cloaked Wizard…my mom found this fabric at a garage sale for me…it’s been waiting for the perfect place to make its appearance…tada! And I have probably 2 more yards of it just in case I need more some day!  This pattern is from the set Wand Wielders http://www.craftsy.com/patterns/quilting?sortBy=relevance&patte… He is all hand pieces and is a massive 9 inches square. Completed September 17th 2013

a bit of paper piecing with Shamus


Paper Pieced Witchie momma block.  Started the second set of Witch Bonnet Sue’s…I think this one turned out ok I’m just not a massive fan of reproduction fabrics… She’s all hand stitched and is a tidy 9 inches square. She was purchased with a set from: http://www.craftsy.com/user/470750/pattern-store?NAVIGATION_PAGE_CO… oh no…when I was capturing this address I noticed there is a new set of witchie friends…I have the feeling this quilt will end up being quite massive…. But I digress…(internal happy dance) she was completed September 15th 2013


With all the washing of baby stuff I found one blanket with a stain that Shamus has adopted…aw… September 15th2013

more sewing can be found at Lovies by Yane : wordpress

weekend in stitches

Paper pieced Broomstick Witch…the broom part didn’t line up quite perfectly but she’s fabulous nonetheless…She’s from a set of patterns purchased from: http://www.craftsy.com/pattern/quilting/other/busy-bodies-paper-pie…

She’s all hand stitched and is 9 inches square. September 7th 2013

Paper pieced Wise Ol’ Wizard…ok so he’s not that old with his youthful auburn hair and beard but he’s looking fabulous in his candy corn hat! He’s from a set of patterns purchased from:http://www.craftsy.com/pattern/quilting/other/busy-bodies-paper-pie…

He’s all hand stitched and is 9 inches square September 8th 2013

Finished my first set of paper pieced Busy Body witchie friends. Onto the next set: Wand Wieldershttp://www.craftsy.com/pattern/quilting/other/wand-wielders-paper-p… !  I plan on piecing 4 complete sets of witchie friends into a fabulous quilt that I’ll be keeping for a change…no really, I mean it this time! I will be sewing up Monster Madness http://www.craftsy.com/pattern/quilting/other/monster-madness-paper…  and Friendly Familiars http://www.craftsy.com/pattern/quilting/other/friendly-familiars-pa… too. September 8th 2013

Oliver and paper piecing

Oliver’s 1st day of 2nd grade! Figure I’ll take the same picture every year to see how he grows…I remember having to help him into the Jeep and buckle him in…tear…he’s growing up so fast! September 3rd 2013 he’s 8 years old!

Busy Body Potion Maker all hand stitched…took a movie, the news, and a couple Law & Order SVUs to complete.  She’s 9 inches square.  From a fabulous set of patterns from:  http://www.craftsy.com/pattern/quilting/other/busy-bodies-paper-pie…

Completed August 25th 2013 haven’t decided if I’ll add some embroidery yet…

Oppsie Daisy Witch (paper pieced by hand) she took the movie Phantoms, 1 law & Order SVU and 20 minutes of Under the Dome to complete. I made two miscalculations while making this block…I’m not telling! This block is 9 inches square. I bought the pattern with the set:http://www.craftsy.com/pattern/quilting/other/busy-bodies-paper-pie…

Completed August 26th 2013

Fortune Teller paper pieced witchie poo.  Worked on her for a few days but finally got her done during a viewing of the new The Thing. This block is 9 inches square. I bought the pattern with the set:http://www.craftsy.com/pattern/quilting/other/busy-bodies-paper-pie…  completed August 29th 2013

Green Thumb Witch (Paper pieced by hand) she was completed over a couple days and quite a few really bad B movies…used sock monkey fabric for her shoes…she’s very cute!  9 inches square I bought the pattern with the set:http://www.craftsy.com/pattern/quilting/other/busy-bodies-paper-pie…

Completed September 1st 2013

Boris and Wilma

Boris the duck from Blue’s Clues finally done…the paper pieced marvel…alright perhaps not marvel but I’m always a bit excited when I actually accomplish something! He was all echo quilted by hand while kinda watching a few movies and a couple seasons of the X-files much to Jim’s chagrin! Boris is a free pattern:http://fandominstitches.files.wordpress.com/2012/06/pattern_bluescl…

Detail of the quilting…hey now don’t be measuring…I know there aren’t 10 stitches per inch and if there are it was purely by accident…the super cute ducky buttons are from a knitting/spinning shop in Buffalo…Boris is a free pattern: http://fandominstitches.files.wordpress.com/2012/06/pattern_bluescl…

Boris in his new home amongst the other assorted bucks in the bathroom.   Yup all this work and effort to hang in the bathroom…hey it’s how I roll.  Now to draw a rubber duck on some adequate plywood so Jim can cut it out and I can make a nifty jewelry holder to put by this shelf!  I’ll have to buy some paint and brushes too…so many silly ideas so little time! Boris is a free pattern: http://fandominstitches.files.wordpress.com/2012/06/pattern_bluescl…

wilma home 8-18-13

Wilma’s home in the TV room.  Eventually I’ll have to get her a larger tank but I’m pretty sure it will reside in the same place.

wilma w fish 8-17-13

Wilma contemplating the tiny rosy red minnows we put in her water dish…contemplating mind you, she prefers crickets and monster worms to fish at the moment.

wilma water dish 8-17-13

Wilma hanging out in her casserole water dish…hey! It works for now but when she gets bigger …


Critters hairless & furred

500 GW in the sun 8-12-13

Green Wilma getting some real sun…we’ve discovered that Wilma is a male Chinese Water Dragon…but the name has adhered…thus Green Wilma will remain his stage name…he’s a cross dresser of Julie Newmar stature!

500 GW over the shoulder 8-12-13

Green Wilma either come hither or don’t you dare touch me…hard to tell…Loved watching the flies and other bugs flit around…very wary every time a bird would fly over.

500 Helga escape 8-12-13

Helga-Hiss-a-Lot contemplating this here crack…her head could fit but her tiny appendages were far to small to get all of her up high enough

500 helga on the move 8-12-13

Helga-Hiss-a-Lot on the run…hard to tell from the photo but she can really move er slither once she knows where she it…she had to stop and taste ever dead leaf and wee weed along the way…

500 Helga scouting the patio 8-12-13

pretty spry for an 8 year old blue tongued skink! Helga creeping under my mom’s chair…good thing my mom isn’t totally terrified of the hairless beasties!

500 Shamus on mommy 8-12-13

Shamus getting over his jealous moment when he didn’t get to go outside with the lizards…not an attractive view but I know he loves me!

500 shamus RUN 8-13-13

just after 5 am…pretty dark in here…just had to say where’s daddy and here he comes to look for him… :)

Boris n Shamus n Wilma

The Boris block is done after 2 weekends of on again off again work…and he is fabulous!  This block pattern is free from: http://fandominstitches.files.wordpress.com/2012/06/pattern_bluescl…

I blew him up on a copier so he’d be larger.  The block is 16 inches square with 2 ¾ inch border all around. He’s made of cotton with a Minky wing…I received the fabulous yellow fabric in a fabric swap…his beak is left over Batik from another swap, feet from a batik charm pack…and the blue…hmmm…that was just laying in the blue bin of fabric waiting for a home.

Color me silly but I always like the look of the back of these blocks I accomplish.  I hand sew all of it as my machine really likes sewing fast and I tend to over shoot when I foundation piece on it.  So many tiny stitches went into Boris…

Close up…itty bitty stitches…I don’t keep track of how long each block takes…lets just say quite a few movies played and the 1st season of the X-Files to get Boris stitched.

Here he is after a couple hours of quilting and receiving his nostrils and pupils…he positively screams I CAN SEE…he will make a bright fabulous addition to the rubber ducky motif of the bathroom!

Shamus just came in from a romp out side…is there something on his face?!?

Green Wilma giving me the stink eye after being fed the last monster worm…

Cacti, Wilma & flannel

Jazmin’s Cacti & Succulent bowl…blooming!

I really shouldn’t go to a pet type shop when I’m feeling guilty for not saving every unhappy animal on the planet…specially that huge snapping turtle some poop ran over on highway 12 (Karma baby…perhaps you’ll get squished by a redneck someday) but I digress, this is Green Wilma, she’s about 8 months old and suffering from calcium deficiency…I adopted her as her previous owner gave her to Petco…poor baby…named her after the cool frog in the book Green Wilma that the girls and Olie like…got her home and she ate her vitamin covered crickets, had a nice long drink of water and gave Shamus McSuchy-Myhre the stink eye every time he moved…Other than her one floppy back leg and what looks like a broken finger she gets around quite nicely! I’m getting her a full spectrum light and on nice days will take her outside for some real sun…

August 7th 2013

Diaper flannel…shopping with Olivia is interesting as long as there is a baby for her to oooh over…other wise she needs to pat all the flannel, right out of the cart… Used up all the large diaper flannel cut-outs so I just MUST have more flannel…but upon getting home I see I have 3 boy flannels and one 1 girl…sigh…Walmart here I come! Out of these flannels I’m only cutting out large diapers as I have quite the stack of smalls left to sew…any left overs I’ll make into patchwork lovies to send to the wee babies in need! August 8th 2013

Lovie Flannel…the wintery holidays are a coming…they are! And these cute winter flannels were even on sale…I think both the reindeer on green and the penguins on blue scream unisexed…backed with a solid color I hope they will still work for both newborn girls and boys this holiday season…the sweet cream with girlie stuff I was going to use for teeny diapers but the more I looked at it the more I thought that is would make me even more unhappy if my stillborn had a diaper on with everything I would be missing out on, on it…so I have enough to make a couple newborn receiving lovies out of it instead. August 7th 2013

Flock, Flowers & Flannel

Flock of Hens & Chicks living quite happily in mom’s terraced garden August 5th 2013

Star Gazer lily living outside my window. I can’t take credit for any of these fabulous flowers…Mom did all the work! August 5th 2013

2 more star gazers living in a short yet fabulous row in the garden outside my window August 5th 2013

Small teeny tears http://teenytears.blogspot.com/ diapers (18 week gestation sized) bound for Saint Mary’s Hospital in Rochester Minnesota once I get the large ones completed tonight. I used up my entire stack of larges sized diapers that were cut out…am totally bummed but flannel is where the mad money will be going this week…so I can get another pile cut out for the next hospital…need needles for the sewing machine as I’m using the very last one I have…shocker! August 5th 2013

All who Dwell in my Heart

Finished the Robyn and Neal block…can you believe I didn’t have enough mint or chocolate ribbon?!? Yeah I was shocked too…really broke my heart to go to JoAnn to find the perfect ribbons… hand embroidered Robyn / Neal in chocolate floss…just waiting for the ice-cream man for some mint chocolate chip in a waffle cone! Pattern: ‘crazy hearts’ http://www.paperpanache.com/guests/aheart.htm  Completed July 25th 2013

Attached the ultra teeny diaper to the good works block and added some super cutie patootie ribbons…bummer couldn’t locate ribbon with socks or better yet sock monkeys on it…oh well…this works pretty good. Hand embroidered ‘good works’ on this cotton and flannel heart. This heart is for God’s Tiny Angels, Operation Sock Monkey, Hands for Haiti, Clowns without borders and Teeny Tears! Pattern: ‘crazy hearts’ http://www.paperpanache.com/guests/aheart.htm  Completed July 26th 2013

The very last block, number 20, for the quilt All Who Dwell in my Heart…there are pieces of antique lace and some of my favorite light colored fabrics in this block.  All hand embroidered just like all the other blocks in the quilt.   Pattern: ‘crazy hearts’ http://www.paperpanache.com/guests/aheart.htm Completed July 27th 2013

All who dwell in my heart quilt top is complete…and I only need to tear off one ribbon that I inadvertently melted when I was ironing the top…still can’t figure out how I managed to iron on the fusible batting to that block without melting the ribbon in the first place…nonetheless it is as fabulous as I always thought it would be! It’s taken me a wee bit over 3 years to complete this eye scalding quilt of love and happiness.  Once totally done it will live on the wall right next to Jim’s Tumor Start Quilt. Life adventures in warm lovie form.  When complete it will be approximately 36 inches by 45 inches.  I figure I’ll machine quilt it for longevity, haven’t decided on the backing yet, but I have quite the assortment of slabs of fabric to contemplate. Pattern: ‘crazy hearts’ http://www.paperpanache.com/guests/aheart.htm  July 28th 2013

paper pieced heart WIP -n- Shamus

Good Works heart WIP

for my All Who Dwell in my Heart Quilt. Made this block out of cottons and flannel I’ve used to make quilts, lovies, angel pockets http://danettesangels.tripod.com/ and teeny diapers http://teenytears.blogspot.com/.  I plan on making a super teeny diaper to sew onto the orange spackled fabric.  The monkey in the heart is for all the sock monkeys and sock beasties that now reside across the planet http://www.operationsockmonkey.com/ and that wee sheep with the pacifier is for all the babies I’ve helped keep warm.…the pattern is free and can be found at: http://www.paperpanache.com/free/guestpats/aheart.htm I blew it up a bit on the copier…paper pieced by hand…that’s how I roll…I’ll be adding ribbons by machine and hand embroider ‘good works’ on the frame of the heart.  Paper piecing Completed July 15th 2013…block is about 8.2 inches square. One more block to go and I’ll have all 20 blocks completed for this quilt!

sewing and other fabulous adventures

Flamingo in the garden.  This is my fabulous birthday flamingo from Jim…think he’s made of old car parts…he watches over Oliver’s fairy garden. July 6th 2013

Jazmin’s bright red lilies. July 6th 2013

Judi’s Cat Box Barter Quilt belly button all sewed and waiting for the border fabric to come in the mail…too cute! July 6th 2013

Mom’s holiday cat box quilt up on the design wall waiting for some sewing machine attention…this one has all but one of the same fabrics as the Judi quilt tried to put this one in a different order so they both look different in the long run. July 6th 2013

Robyn and Neener’s heart WIP (work in Progress) this heart will be one of 20 eventually…don’t know Chocolate and mint make me think of Robyn and her son Neal – Neener.  This heart will join the others in the ‘Those who Dwell in my Heart’ quilt. Worked diligently throughout the day and got it this far.  Tomorrow will work on locating my embroidery hoops (I hope I didn’t get rid of them in the move) and embroidery their names in chocolate colored floss, add some minty ribbons and get started on the 2nd to the last heart…perhaps I’ll get this done this year! Or at least all the blocks…have a perfect place on the wall for it.  The pattern for this fabulous block is free at:http://www.paperpanache.com/free/guestpats/aheart.htm July 7th 2013

cast box quilt

Judi’s cat box barter quilt…yup still on the design wall…

500 cat box quilt Judi WIP 7-4-13

OMG I was 2 cat fabrics short…can you believe I miscounted…I’m shocked too…thankfully I had hot pink with kitty foot prints and Hello Kitty Halloweenie fabrics to fill in the blanks…just to make it exciting the entire design wall fell off the wall onto me…not a square moved…good thing I had some massive diaper pins to hang it back on it’s hooks…don’t care what anyone says…QUILTING IS WICKED EXCITING!  OK so here are the 49 different cat fabrics in all their glory patiently waiting for me to cool off a bit on this toasty 4th of July then I can start stitching them together and contemplate the borders! eventually I’ll be hand quilting a kitty foot print in the center of each square…neato! July 4th 2013

fabulous feline fabric

Fifteen fabulous feline fat quarters arrived today!

All ready to iron and chop up for the 2 (so far) cat box quilts…eeeeeeee can’t wait to see ho dandy these turn out! And I LOVE the selection of really fun fabrics at http://www.bugfabric.com/ when I start the great Shamus quilt of Puppy butts I’ll have to go back to get a plethora of canine cotton. I have way too many great ideas for quilts…perhaps now that I have my creativity niche I can really get to work accomplishing a few. I should have more than enough left over kitties to make a couple more knee warmers too!  July 1st 2013

creativity FINALLY

BINS…a multitude of creativity filled bins…boowahahahaha…now all I need to do is put all the bins in order…I have oranges on 3 different shelves, washer backed eyes in the same bin as ruffled lace and safety pins…I am out of control…took 5 minutes to find my pinking shears…it was in a shoe box not a bin…what was I thinking? Well long weekend coming up…after I put the DVDs in alphabetical order I’ll tackle the bin situation…June 30th 2013

Tidy little pile of cats that will grow into Mom’s next fabulous quilt…just waiting for the last 15 fabrics, don’t worry they’re all fat quarters, not $12 yard cuts or anything silly like that, Border fabric is black with rainbow kitty prints…will be quite eye catching…hopefully not to allergen causing as I’m allergic to cats…lol… rainbow prairie points and perhaps a hand quilted cat silhouette in the middle of each square…June 30th 2013

Judi’s barter cat box quilt WIP…looking lovely…really glad I have a design wall now so I can rearrange the square till it’s perfect dark to light…squares are each 7.5” so this will be a nifty knee warmer eventually! This will have a black with white kitty foot prints boarder and black & white prairie points…I think a black back… and perhaps a hand quilted cat silhouette in the middle of each square …June 30th 2013

I’ve got a dandy hallway now to display the quilts I can’t bear to part with…they dampen the echo too…

two house quilts and Jim’s tumor star quilt so far…I have room for a couple more…have a tall skinny quilt planned for the TV room door to deaden the planned music studio corner of it… ROCK ON! June 30th 2013

sea foam & lavender for sale on Etsy

This is the perfect size lovie for wrapping a baby against the cold,

covering the stroller against the sun, lying on the lawn so baby can explore the great outdoors without getting in the grass and

as baby grows into a toddler is a fine drag about or blanket for daycare nap time.

available at: https://www.etsy.com/listing/155175576/seafoam-lavender-quilt-for-a-sweet?ref=shop_home_active

All items sold in this store are to fund the making and shipping of baby goods for preemie and at risk newborns via God’s Tiny Angels also the creating and shipping of sock beasties via Operation Sock Monkey.

sweet toddler not included with the quilt :)

Sew I’m sewing again…just like riding a bike…

almost completed a sweet baby/toddler/wheelchair-bound-knee-warmer quilt…flannel with Minky front with coordinating flannel for the back.  Sea foam and lavender really go nicely together.  Used a thin iron-on batting that gives it a nice drape, very comfortable for the summer months.  Now…do I donate it, Give it or sell it.  If I sell it I can use the funds towards my next donation shipment that I have 2  currently waiting to leave…If I donate it, it will have to wait till I can afford to ship it…and who to give it to… It’s approximately 36 inches square, machine quilting for durability…the squares were already together, it’s a cheater quilt on the bolt…I’ve noticed one area where their stitching is a bit loose so I’ll be adding a little something, a butterfly or flower to cover the loose stitches when I’m done quilting.  Oh all those fabulous shiny safety pins…just there for the moment…lol…think there’s about ½ hour of work left on this one.  I have a boy version of cheater quilt too…perhaps that one will be next…oh who knows! June 24th 2013

500 room getting better 6-24-13


The white is slowly breaking up into pleasing negative space…I have a massive Jimi Hendrix poster to put up, along with Henry Rollins young and screaming into a microphone and a few more painting adventures to hang once I find them in the closet full of boxes…ugh a closet full to still empty…perhaps over the next holiday I’ll have the energy…or maybe I’ll just sew! Oh I love 3M Velcro mounting deals that don’t damage walls! June 24th 2013



some teeny sewing with snoozing Shamus

16 sets of small – as small as 18 week gestation – sized teeny tears diapers trimmed and flipped…all ready to be ironed and top stitched…snuck over to mom’s to sew a bit on June 9th… felt great to just sew for a change…I still had packing and moving pecking at the back of my mind…so I just turned the music up a bit and sewed on! Was listening to Angie’s Farm – Salad Bowl Blues on the CD player. Once completed these will be going to Bemidji Minnesota…YEAH…Teeny Tears go to every state in the union now…Happy dance! June 9th2013 http://teenytears.blogspot.com/

21 sets of large – up to 32 weeks gestation – sized teenytears diapers top stitched and pinned…ready to get their cards and bagged for shipment…these will be going to Bemidji Minnesota…YEAH…Teeny Tears go to every state in the union now…Happy dance! While listening to Etta James sing from the silly little CD player on the window sill. June 9th 2013 http://teenytears.blogspot.com/

Sewing…such bliss…yup that’s itty bitty hound’s tooth for the inside of a teeny jungle print diaper! June 9th2013 http://teenytears.blogspot.com/

Just sewing a teeny diaper…I have quite the stack waiting their turn under the needle June 9th2013 http://teenytears.blogspot.com/

I think pudgy Shamus is out growing his bed…or perhaps he just really wanted to spread out for a while! June 9th2013

sewing nook taking shape


The sewing nook is complete but for adequate lighting.  Already using it when I have a chance…contemplating the rearranging of the many bins as I noticed I have orange cotton in 3 different places…can’t have that! But Shamus approves…he came with for a sewing moment and finally stopped pacing and laid behind my chair once I put in Evanescence and got to sewing… May 27th 2013

a little closer to home every day!

I so sewed!


first thing I’ve sewed in a very long time! wee Teeny small sized diapers!!! woo hoo I feel so much better just having sewed even a little…there’s not very good light there just yet, so I could only get these done before it was getting too dim…more to sew next time there’s enough light


my sewing table all set up and ready to get to work! THANK YOU my sweet husband, you manly man you! Took it apart, tied it to the Jeep and put it back together after getting it in the house!


the batik every home has a heart quilt I’ve been hand quilting…now in the new sewing area…better get this move done!


my favorite pink house with the heart quilted…

I’m almost home…we’re all almost home…hopefully within a month we will be all moved in, all getting used to our new surroundings…all becoming content and happy…counting the seconds!

almost home

My creativity corner with my menagerie of silly beasties, interesting statuary, cool bromeliad and my goddess runner…well and the plethora of skeletal beasties…note this area not totally done…I have a nick-nack shelf to install with still more itty bitty diddle dee doos to keep me inspired while I eventually sew…(I’m hoping on Memorial day in fact to sew) Yes that’s a stack of Teeny diapers waiting for top stitching and pins! May 23rd 2013

Another view of the window ledge…I dare say it’s nice to see some of my favorite chucks of happiness out of the box! May 23rd 2013

My view out of the window…eeeeeeeeee…I have a window to look out of while I sew without anyone scowling at me from another trailer! Natural lighting….nature…loveliness…even in the winter I’ll have a white drift with occasional birdie foot prints…to incredibly nice…after all these years to have a view. I guess this is Jim’s view too since he will be living in this room too…if he can get to it…May 23rd 2013

My wee garden right outside my window consists of my more than 20 year old bleeding heart and Buddha…there ya go…one plant my kind of garden…May 23rd 2013

My other happy Buddha hanging out in the moss with the columbines and ferns and some I can’t identify…guess I’m more of a statuary gardener…plunk them down in the plants and done…May 23rd 2013

I can’t wait to finally feel like creating again…this whole move along with the steroids I’m on have left me so discombobulated and uninspired, I’m just miserable not accomplishing anything…I have even kept back a quilt to hand needle and it just sits on my lap…my husband asks if I’m going to work on it and I just don’t…I’m tipping over the sewing table tomorrow to remove it’s legs and bring it and the remaining sewing stuff over tomorrow and I plan on Monday (or even Sunday) going over and sewing…if only to top stitch some diapers or receiving blankets…just to do something again…I’m living in an emptying trailer, it’s hollow and full of echos with all the quilts off the walls, books off the shelves, breakables in boxes…the beasties are the only thing left moving now that the bobble heads have all been put away…I packed my alter 2 days ago along with my daughter’s urn…I feel like a shell when I go home now…hopefully within a month I can sleep in my new room with my alter on my dresser where it belongs, dog warming my feet, sewing corner ready to be used, hearing nothing but birds singing and frogs croaking in the morning instead of drunks yelling, dogs fighting, sirens, and racket…the longer we stay in the trailer the worse it seems around us…
I’m a bit of a crybaby today…
the rant continues
Oh I’m on prednisone to breathe and it always makes me quite morose…I like breathing but I hate being so bummed about everything…
this move is wearing on me…we’re waiting for the contractor to complete a room in mom’s basement for us, I need to give the trailer to someone who can actually pay the rent, the neighborhood where the trailer is just getting tiring with all the stupid people living there who don’t care about anything and anyone…I just want to be out of there, but I can’t leave the trailer empty though, other trailers have been left empty and the people there break in and take all the copper and anything else not tied down. 
Sigh…back in 1993 when we moved in it really wasn’t such a bad place…but now…well maybe I’m just getting old and crotchety but I just can’t cope with all the self centered stupidity…children running wild unattended, pit bulls running free scaring Jazmin and Shamus…after almost 45 years I think I deserve better as does my family…I’ve busted my butt to keep my trailer up, keep the yard attractive and now these people move in without a care in the world trampling all my hard work…even had one approach Jaz and ask if she could take Oliver’s bicycle for her son…um…it’s Oliver’s and her son is all a year and a half old…there’s no way a baby can ride a bicycle…I guess I was just taken back by the audacity of someone thinking they could ask for something in my yard and I would hand it over…Needlessly to say we are putting the bike in the locked shed till we move now…
sorry to be so down…

a couple reptilian sweeties


500 Helga-hiss-a-lot 5-20-13

looking up at me…what…no food?!? Be gone human! She’s about 8 years old now…a blue tongued skink bred and born right here in the frozen North although her ancestors are from Australia. May 20th 2013



500 minerva skitter 5-21-13

skittering across the wall of her tank.  Minerva is my freshly adopted Tokay Gecko.  She’s not known for being the most hospitable of geckos but she is lovely! May 21st 2013


A little early morning tummy time

500 minerva tummy 5-21-13

for Minerva basking in the glow of the early news as well as her black heat lamp. She squeaks like an angry rubber duck when she’s mad…I won’t be going out of my way to upset her. May 21st 2013



500 Minerva-Mighty Mouth peek 5-20-13

peeking from behind her water dish once the hubbub calmed down after bringing her home.  She watches you move…wonder if way back in her lineage she was a velociraptor…May 20th 2013

cool multi-legged creatures


Hinrik 5-5-13

and Gustav

Gustav 5-5-13

my mother’s day darkling blue death feigning beetles Cryptoglossa verrucosus …

death feigning beetles 1 5-5-13

eeeeeeeeee…a couple of bug-a-boos I can occasionally hold…Tabitha gave these 2 wicked little critters to me a week early but that’s OK…I can’t quite tell them apart or if they are both dudes…pretty sure they won’t come when called… May 4th 2013


Morticia drinking 1 5-5-13

Morticia our really neato Emperor Scorpion Pandinus Imperator, getting a drink from her new bowl…J oh and I don’t hug her…love her to bits but fear her stinger…

Morticia drinking 2 5-5-13

no idea if she is indeed a she for that matter… May 5th 2012

haven’t been creative for a while

I haven’t been very creative of late…in fact I haven’t actually made anything for about a month…it’s not for lack of stuff to make, I have plenty of diapers cut out, I have receiving blankets that only need the top stitching and they would be done…I even have newborn quilt all sandwiched and ready to go as well…you see I’ve been building a new and very fabulous sewing nook at my mom’s house

For a while all I had was this diagram…drove me a little crazy so I started packing up all my creative diddle dee doos, and bringing Jeep loads over…Bought some fabulous metal shelving units at Menard’s, picked up a felt backed vinyl table cloth at Walmart to make a design wall…all these years of quilting I never had a design wall…the blocks really stick to the felt!

I have a lovely window that looks out at the gardens, if it ever stops snowing I plan on transplanting the bleeding heart plant I’ve had for oh 20 years or so right outside my window and move my lovely Buddha out there as well…

There’s a ledge for some light stuff and my radio so I can have music while sewing/cutting/creating.

This photos a bit blurry…I couldn’t get back far enough…let’s just say I have never had all my supplies where I can see them…WOW…I won’t need to buy fabric or socks for sock beasties for quite a while!  I have all my complete quilt tops in one place so I can get to work on those…well…I have a lot of work ahead of me!

Can’t forget about Shamus…Sprawled in his bed in the sun for a bit…sweet pupper-butt!

24 years ago today

24 years ago today my angel Natalia made her appearance in this world…

Natalia heart

she only lived here for 29 days but what I would give to just have one of those days back…like when Tabitha her big sister all of 18 months old held her for the longest time on the ratty red velvet chair and they both smiled…sigh…Happy birthday Natalia Tatianna…you are dearly missed!


My cluttered mind

So much to do. So much left to contemplate.  Most of which is on the QT…so I can’t really splash it all over the headlines at the moment. Let’s just say my address will be changing…for the better.

Natalia heart

I’d really like to sit at the sewing machine and finish the pile of diapers sitting there, or better yet do the top stitching on the stack of receiving blankets.  But I don’t.  I look at the sewing table a mere 6 feet or so from my chair with the piles of flannel and cotton beseeching me to sew and I can’t make myself cross those 6 feet to just do it.  I know once I sit over there I can accomplish the lot of it in a few hours, then I can throw the blankets in the wash and then pin and package the diapers, have those piles completed and out of my mind…it’s those 6 feet of space and the overwhelming jumble of thoughts crowding my mind that keep firmly in my seat watching the TV blindly.


monkey madness

monkey madness

What do I keep, what do I donate, what do I give to someone I know, what do I unceremoniously throw away?!?  Have been living in this little death trap for 20 years.  Wow. I type that 20 years and I realize I have aged as healthily as the craptacular abode I’ll soon be escaping with its 70’s linoleum and so many horrible memories.  Do I pack the memories too? Will they slither along with the boxes of books and breakables to take up new residence? Of course they will.  Natalia’s memory came with to this trailer from those apartments.  Oh to just erase all the bad and just keep the good…deal with it, cope with it, accept it…sigh.  I’ve been living with so much tripe taking up space in my mind and heart for so long I’m tired of it.  Oh I’ll hang on to the memory of Nat even if I have to have the memory of her death.  I’d like to totally loose all memory of the first marriage mistake but keep all the memories of the lovely children that occurred because of that union.  I’ll give up the memory of the ridiculous rebound marriage too, but keep the memories of my girls and the birth of the sweet grandson. It’s a shame you can’t have selective memory loss…of course no offence meant to anyone’s anyone suffering from memory loss.

Natalia N Tabitha

See it’s all these stinking memories clogging my mind when I’m busily cramming more stuff in there: appointments to get to, things to remember to ask at said appointments, things to revise, things to do.  Pay the property taxes ASAP, pay the rent, pay the medical bills, oh go to work and be productive so you get paid.  Clean the fish tanks, yeah plural.  Feed Akmed. Feed Helga. Make Shamus’ vet appointment…find out how much that will cost.  Hey that big bag of chopped up monkey bodies…sew those together you freak! Ship out boxes to the 4 corners of the planet…gotta keep acquiring that good Karma, I’ll need it this coming year for sure.


Lists. Post-its. Scribblings on napkins, envelopes, sketchings of furniture placement, contemplations of decorating in a cool yet not really ‘me’ way.  Can’t be wicked cool…will have to be subdued…ugh…dare I say adult.  Unhappy face.  What of my posters? Yeah, SO juvenile but they are so cool.  My muses to keep me going, the rainbow happiness surrounding me goading me to sew, create, envelope me with busyness…a frappe of color and texture…now white…a blank canvas I can’t paint. So very empty of expression.  What of dangling deals in the windows from the ceiling moving slowly in the air currents that surround the life living there?  Dare I hang the witch’s ball in the window? That I do. Shhhh. Perhaps no one will notice.  But the rest, the wind chimes, the mobiles, the oddness hanging from string will all have to go else where with someone else…or in the trash. Another unhappy face.


Garage sale of things I really don’t want to see go? How does one price items they still like? I’m probably a hoarder of some sort, without the dead flattened animals under piles of refuse.  I just like weird stuff.  Odd ash trays (I don’t smoke), weird mugs I’ll never drink out of, postcards from places I’ll never go, statues, glass things, stuffed beasties, spooky dolls.  Things I don’t need but I like to have.  I like to look at.  How do I choose?  Do I keep the weird doll mom made in the 70’s, named Ruthie with the blue face Stevie ‘adopted’, or do I keep the black Kewpie doll? If I keep both do I then get rid of the Shamus dog collection? I can easily say good bye to the crockery and silverware, glasses cups rugs, towels nondescript furnishing and appliances we won’t need.  I can even be OK with giving/selling the Halloween collection I won’t have room for, perhaps even the Giraffe family with their friends the rhinos…but my zombie dolls, Oonies and sock monkeys…I just don’t know if I can part with them…they aren’t essential like oxygen, but they make me happy…too damn many thoughts…too damn many things to decide about.  Which books can leave? OMG…don’t get me started on books! They’re as prolific as DVDs, CDs, records, yeah vinyl, even cassettes…OY, guitars…playable ones, ones left to be built, bodies painted fabulous but that no real hope of completion any time soon…do people buy guitar parts at garage sales?  Unhappy face once again…

pained grin xmas 2009

I’m happy to move, happy to live in a solid actual house.  HAPPY damnit.  This is a good thing for all of us.  A really healthy change for all of us, have to get happy about it.  Fresh start, out with old in with the new.  New is so scary though.  Oh no…here come the what-ifs…they suck as much as the thoughts of getting rid of things.  What if this doesn’t go smoothly?  What if we end up hating each other?  What if this causes more stress and friction in this tinderbox of a family?  What if we all don’t bend and cope and accept life together? This can’t possibly go in a perfectly ordered tidy calm way.  Look at us, a family of freaks with our menagerie of freaky pets, all of us on different schedules for every thing, we’re all odd and don’t even blend with each other much less mashing us with another human being who’s a bit less malleable than any of us could hope for.  Well, guess we’ll aim for a forced frappe, blend this family like no other before it.  Now to just teach Shamus to be incredibly happy in a quiet way and set all the TVs to be read rather than heard…this new chapter will prove interesting if nothing else…and I will be happy about it…damnit…slightly less unhappy face